He Never Stops.

I come to this post broken, but in a good way. A way that I can only thank God for. The last few weeks really have been a whirlwind. We had kids camp with a team from Arizona and Montana, and then my church from Midland brought a group and did an inner city sports camp, and this week we have been preparing for the youth camp which we leave for on Saturday.

I felt the Lord working so much in my heart and life, which is partially why I haven't sat down to post because I've been trying myself to sort through all my emotions and thoughts and such.

Basically what it comes down to is I have finally said yes to something I have running away from for a while now. I kept saying, "O I'll take this year in Moldova, the Lord will show me a lot, I'll go home go to college and get a job maybe in the arts, photography or even teaching or counseling", sounds like a pretty well laid out plan right? ha well that was MY plan not God's, that's for sure. I Wonder when I will finally realize that I can't make my own plans, He rules in my life and His plans always end up being better anyways! So I am officially devoting my life to full time ministry. It's scary, confusing, exciting, and joyous all at the same time. I know that a life of full time ministry can be difficult but there's nothing else I could see myself doing than serving our Lord and Savior. All of His children are called to serve Him, but what Moldova has showed me is that I'm meant to serve Him in all I do no matter where I am, full time. I had felt this call before and always seemed to push it away, but after serving here in Moldova I don't want to push it away anymore, I must embrace this call. Things seem so much more clear now. Anything I wanted to do with my life before never felt right but I just have this feeling right in the pit of my stomach that this is right, and my heart is so heavy with Joy. I know the Lord is in this, and I'm anxious to see where He will take me next.

I went on an adventure today with a group of girls and when we were driving back to the city tonight my mind was swimming, as it had been all day, well for the last 2 weeks actually. I turned on my music to a group that was a free download off of a Christian website Come and Live, and hadn't listened through the whole album. Of course the 1st song struck me and I'm even listening to it on repeat as I write this post.

These are the lyrics that particularly struck me-

Great Awakening- Explore

"I am determined to know nothing but You, demonstrate Your truth

I am set on spending my life on You, there's nothing to lose

Can I explore the depths of Your kindness

What else could I do,

I'm moved with a love, there's nothing to lose

My mind is made up, I want to stay unglued,

living to see You move

Nothing can hold me back anymore"

I'm amazed at how many different ways God makes His ways sure to us. I have seen a lot of confirmation the last week or so and it's overwhelming and amazing.

So please pray for me as my "original" plans have taken a turn, but one that I'm excited about, because they aren't my plans anymore, they're His. I want to do this His way, not mine. I'll still be going home at the end of August, but instead of starting at Midland Community College in January as originally planned I 'm going to look into some different options, more than likely a Bible College where I can get more specific education for ministry. I know I need more knowledge in order to serve Him as best I can. It's in God's hands and we will just see what He does next!

Blessings to you all this week,

Bethany

I know where I'm going

Having been here in Moldova over a year now I feel like I'm looking through different eyes than a year ago. I leave my apartment and don't have to second guess which direction I'm supposed to go. I go to the grocery store and actually know what is in what I'm buying. I walk in the park or in the mall and see a familiar face. I feel at home when at church despite the language difference. I don't feel like I live in a foreign country anymore. Now Moldova isn't another country far away from home that I moved to for a year, it is my second home that holds a special place in my heart.

This makes me think of my relationship with God, and how I want the same things between God and I. I want to know which direction He wants me to go and not second guess Him. I want to live my life to glorify God. I want the familiar faces around me to know that God is hope and the reason for my smile. I don't want God to feel foreign to me, but my best friend, Father, and hope. I want to be close to Him, not far away. I want to know without doubt that I will be going to home to God. My real and true home is with Christ.

I love how things I notice everyday no matter how small are used by God to show me something else. I feel like even if after Moldova I go to school for 10+ years it won't compare to the what God has taught me here in Moldova.

Gearing up for camp next week these next couple of days. I will be going with the early group on Saturday to help prepare everything for the kids arrival on Monday. The American team from Arizona arrives on Saturday, so please pray for their safe arrival. I pray that God will completely surround the camp next week and the His truth will prevail.

O and we had a great 4th of July celebration on Monday. Claudette, Ashley, and I went to Irene's for home made cheeseburgers, french fries, Coke, and ice cream sundaes. It was great to spend the holiday with my Moldovan mom and my fellow American roommates. Good times in Moldova!

Much much love,

Bets

Something YOU can do!

So if you know me you know that I have many t-shirts of an organization called To Write Love On Her Arms. They are a non-profit organization who aim to present hope and find help for those who struggle with depression, addiction, self-injury, and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire, and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery.

TWLOHA started just a few months after we lost my brother to suicide over 5 years ago, so what this organization does means a lot to me and I love seeing the difference they make. They aren't advertised as a Christian organization, but it's obvious that the Lord has used their desire to help others to make a difference.

Something you can do today if you have a Facebook account is click on the banner below and vote for them to win 250k through the Vivint Givesback Project!

Something that I really care about, so I thought I would help get the word out!

Hope everyone is having a blessed week!

Bets

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